We’re starting to get settled. I won’t say that things are going smoothly. They’re not. In the 7 days we’ve been here I’ve had multiple bouts of what-the-hell-am-I-doing-here’s just as many I-just-want-to-go-home’s. It’s hot. I don’t have any of my stuff. I don’t have an internet connection of my own that isn’t based off my phone. I’m disconnected from the people I need the most right now. While my family would argue that they’re all right here, it’s my close-knit group of friends that I am most lonely for. My marriage is in a difficult time right now. We are both going through and adjustment and having to come back from the real damage that was done over the past year of Doug’s ridiculous schedule. It’s been trying to say the least. With two people that have two completely different communication styles things can go from great to worse quickly. When there is also a time deficit and a family to raise in between, and there are things that have been said and left un-said that have caused fissures in our foundation. Add that I am stressed about the amount of work that I am coming back to and I’m ready to crack. Thankfully I was able to drop off Krysty and Fi with my mom to get some laundry done while I get time to try to get work done and some much needed blogging done. At some point I’m going to have to upload all of this to the website and figure out how to get it all in order.
Right now this sucks. It’s hard and I don’t wanna! I know I’m still adjusting and coming off a really hard week/month/year. I know in a few days I’ll feel better. Much better – but today is hard.