Things are slowly starting to get better. Sort of.
It's a
process. A painfully slow process. I want what I want and I want it
NOW. I'm not good at waiting and have zero patience. Instant Gratification should be my middle name.
The girls'
schedule is crazy. I'm running to the school a couple times a day
sometimes. They are learning that driving to the school 300 times in a
day makes Mom nuts and so have been very good about staying a little
extra here and there. Thankfully both of the older girls have
after school activities. This way it's not always the same kid waiting
for the other one to be done. Jane has a great after-school program
that she just loves so that's extra helpful, too. That way I don't have
to worry about picking her up around the others' practice schedules.
Fiona
is on her second day care provider and about to be done there. Both
women have still been in jammies when I got there. This is your job and
I'm giving you money, put on a bra! Just sayin'. So I may have to just
say screw it and figure out something else. I know I'm not paying much,
but it's only 2 days a week. I remember having much better luck with
in-home care when the bigger girls were little. The time she's been in
day care has been great. I've actually gotten a lot done (I even have
time to update the blog!). And it's been a great break for me. Georgie
is still little and is rocking an awesome nap schedule so I can't really
complain there. I made the tough decision to to stop nursing her (I'll
discuss that later) and I haven't cried about it once today so I think
that just might be OK, too.
It'll get worked out. It always does.
We're
having new furniture delivered today and I'm pretty excited about
that. It seems to all be coming together just enough to keep me from a
total breakdown. Hopefully I haven't just jinxed it, but time will
tell.
I might actually get back to looking like I know what the heck I'm doing and feeling like I'm not going to implode.
Thanks
everyone, for hanging on. It was getting a little dark around here, and
that actually helped me pull myself out. I realized that I couldn't
post another "This Sucks Because" blog or I was going to take this whole
thing straight down the toilet. I hope you'll stick around to see what
happens next.
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